I’m finally doing this thing.
This thing that I’ve been so terrified to do for so long… I’m launching my website and starting my blog, for real this time.
I say for real this time because five years ago I had a blog. Five and a half years ago I wrote about my experiences as a bright-eyed twenty-year-old living in London, completely unaware of the twists and turns life had in store for me and living it up in independence for the first time. Those days were some of the best I’ve ever had. But in all honesty, I was just a kid. The events of the following five years have left me in a confused daze, one that I have not been able to find the words to describe. But I’m going to begin to try.
My writing dropped off once I started dating my first boyfriend. He became my entire life. It was like I didn’t know how to be Serena anymore… instead, I was just Hugo’s girlfriend. Talking about our relationship online felt scary to me… it was such a new territory for me. Since it’s been several years now and we’re on good terms, I’m not scared to talk about it anymore but at the time it just felt so overwhelming. So I stopped writing. I stopped doing much of anything, to be honest. It’s crazy how much romantic relationships can have an impact.
This blog is going to be a place for me to talk about my experiences. I want to pick up where I left off back in 2015 and talk about all the things that run through my head… the things that make me, me. Being in your twenties is seriously one of the most mentally exhausting and confusing things ever. But by sharing my experiences maybe we can start to make sense of it… or at least finally accept that some things will simply never make sense. I want to begin to show the world who I am. I’m no longer going to let fear run my life.
So welcome to my stream of consciousness. I hope you find some familiarity with what I write. All I ask is that you take this blog for what it is — the random and often chaotic musings of a woman in the making.